Some of the hardest thing to experience in life are relationships break up. Spending sleepless night tossing and turning over a relationship break up. worst still, thoughts of committing suicide.

you must be thinking wats wrong with me when i am already happy with what i have. i am not sure too.
its been such a long time since that break up. and i have totally forgot how i manage to pull through for that 14 mths.

glad... i am so glad everything is over.... if not, i would still be in that pool of shit and wouldnt have such a great guy with me now. My relieved of ending a misery and welcoming a new happiness changed my life. Making me the happiest woman on earth. My guy who has all it takes to be a great boy-friend and husband, gives me all the love i needed. why will i ever wanna face another break up when i have already met my soul partner. (if you think i am such a show-off, you can just close the freaking window cuz i didnt force you to read it.) haha... seriously, i am not in a rush to get married or whatsoever... just stating what i think. :D :D

anyway, for frenze out there if you ever face a break up (hope you will not),
-grieve all you want over it; having a close frenze to accompany you often, might work too...
-keep yourself busy
-dunn resort to drinking cuz it doesnt helps in anyway and its harming yourself.
-getting something nice that you like. (shopping...catching a movie)
-if you are dealing with the end of a very long term relationship, take a trip. Travel can be a perfect way to allow you the chance to put your life into a new perspective.
-dunn dive into a new relationship immediately. These rebound relationships normally are nothing more than a recipe for disaster.

Good Luck people.... :D :D

I am so tired cuz i just came back from JB.

and this afternoon, i rushed back to JB just to go for my dental appointment.

and when i register my name at the reception, the malay lady actually forgotten about me and asked the person who was after me to go in first.......

annoying!!!! i came earlier yet i gotton wait another 20 mins cuz of her mistake.

i just dunnn like to wait.... not that i am being fussy, u know...

the dentist tighten my lower teeth with a new wire and the amount of pressure he exerted to my poor teeth never fail to scare me. Both my hands will clench together when he is attending to my little teeth...and my bf will always accompany me to the dentist. i think that is the moral support he is giving me... so that i will not be as scare... hahaha.. crap.. he just sit there and look at the dentist torturing me can..... but there is nothing he can do lah... haha... okie..i am toking rubbish... anyway thats the price i gotton pay (excluding 6K), since i want my teeth to look nice.
hoho...

**a few pictures took after dentist**

damn...keep trying to paint my nails properly but i cant paint them evenly and sometimes my hands will jolt for no reason while i am painting them... irritating...

suggest that i go for a manicure session rather that i do it myself right?

true... for convenient sake, i should. And the cheapest at bugis village is only 10 bucks. But since i have time to do it myself, why not? thou the output is abit hmm..... yaa... it takes a longer time and as a result cause myself to be frustrated... But i like the process of DIY... haha...and yet i am still grumbling at it... hrmmp... blame it on my skill...

haha...a pic of my nails...and recently, my fingers have rashes so it seem abit rough... sadz...

anyway, i realise that each family have their own culture in celebrating chinese new year.

whether it is the chinese new year decoration, the need to change a new bedsheet, PJ, etc... the way each family greets each other with auspicious words and the exchanging of mandarin orange...etc.

i think i am quite a traditional person when it comes to CNY and other chinese events. i will follow the do's and dont's told by my folks and relatives. Because it is a custom that we gotton past it down to our younger generation. whether they like it or not, they gotton know it. but of course, doing it is another thing.

i went to visit a frenze of mine during CNY and felt rather strange. cuz i was being taught to present the mandarin orange to the elders and they will in turn return me another. so i waited and waited... even when we are leaving her house, her folks didnt return me... so i told my frenze about it. and she said their family culture is like tt... young will give the elder orangeS and in return they will give red packet... not that i am stingy with my orange, just that i am not use to the kind of culture...

anyway, i have some elders who will pass my aunty one whole stack of red packets so that she will take the place of that particular elder to give out red packetS to us. they will also give extra red packetS in case they left out some of my cousin. weird, huh??

some will bring one whole bag of mandarin orangeS for visiting. I think there were about 8 or 10 of orangeS in a bag?? i tot two orangeS is enough?? why so many?? hahaha... one of the elder actually left the orangeS on the table without me knowing and just left... (cuz my parent went for holiday)

weird... weird...there will always be weird things happening during new year... haha

anyway, a picture of the two pregnant women for the year of golden piggy... (my sister and elder cousin)

this is the jade pig that my mum bought from yun nan. one for baby pig and one for my 2nd sis. it is so cute, right??

and lastly, Us... :D

(4th day of CNY)